Friday, November 17, 2006 @ 8:15 AM
o's are like finally over
and the next thing you know, is that you're freaking mugging for A's
like no life like that
live to study. study to live
was so damn bloody stress while preparing for o's
less say exhausted
sleep. study. cram two years of knowledge in brain in 5months. take paper. cramn everything again. sleep. take paper. cram.
been relying on korean ginseng for the pass few weeks
to keep myself less tired cos my maid say coffee will make you stupid and i dont want to be stupid AFTER cramming so many bloody things into my head.
relieved. happy. exicted. tired
no more DARN physics for the rest of my life(:
i cant help to wonder what i'll be like when it comes to A's
threaten suicide? depression? or even barf when i'm walking in?
thoughts of going jc just dissappear instantly
walk into exam hall feeling oh-my-god nauseous
prayed like one thousand time trying to keep myself calm
and talking to myself help to keep my nerves down.
before going in exam hall kancheong like siao
break into cold sweat throughout the whole paper even though it was so darn cold.
sitting beside selena while studying didnt help too.
she's like one freaking electronic dictionary
and when you say something or ask question.
she's talks like that darn woman in that electronic dictionary
and she name you every single fact and every single information
so throughout that whole one hour while the rest where asking questions i was suffering mentally.
breaking point came and stress level immediately piled up by twice.
felt that i didnt study enough and start to feel bad.
i really wonder how kat endure for FOUR FREAKING YEARS while sitting beside a electronic dictionary
must be tough. i couldnt even stand it for an hour.
i'm not trying to imply sel is a freak or what but she scares me.
and thank god nerine was there when i was very exhausted and thought of giving up
she was the one who gave me those encouragement that i couldnt even think of.
and ms tan herself coulnt even encourage herself.
thanks alot man ms tan sihui nerine(:
best sitting partner ever!
it was like from hell to heaven kind since the beggining of sec2
no more freak stuff. no more sick and disgusting stuff.
just pure joy and sheer laughter and lameness almost every hour
how can i forget ms jiali's ''nvm one la'' '' dont think too much'' and ''dont think laaaaaaaaaaa''s
thank god for all my friends too(:
sel, kat, zara, shu
i dont know why but sometimes chirstianity digust me
when i'm myself is a christian.
like GOD. what have all those freak church do to pollute the acts of christianty.
IT TOTALLY DOESNT MEAN THAT BECAUSE YOU GO TO CHURCH YOU'RE ONE EFFING CHRISTIAN
and you start preaching like you're one freak christian
and omg. to go to chuch is a form of worship.
QUEUE FOR HOURS JUST TO GO IN THE SANTUARY.
pls. thats too much la.
you think you're holding one effing concert?
and what? just because you like praise and worship.
pls. get a life
i remember vividly what one pastor said.
and thats quite amazing cos mostly its go in one ear come out another.
i am able to digust all those messages that fast
but this particular pastor once mentioned that christianity USED to be a religion. but now its a accesory
and i cant help but to think how true it is.
thank you lord too for guiding me during this whole period of time
without friends and god i'll probably die or cry myself to deathe.
too much stress. and i put to much pressure one myself.
who to blame?
my ass smart COUSINSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS
who get 10A1s and all those laminate-worthy report slips
THANKS SO MUCH MAN